2019 was one very stressful year. Being in leadership with my company has started taking a toll on me mentally and emotionally, which has been wearing me down. I felt like I was treading deep water and barely keeping myself afloat. Since my company is a start up, changes have been happening on a daily basis and I feel like there is always a discrepancy with ideas between my management team vs. upper management. I spent 3/4 of the year making money to pay off debts. I had a set goal of buying a car at the end of the year and I didn't achieve that goal. I am a bit disappointed in myself because I didn't focus on everything I needed to focus on and I only achieved some of my goals.
2019 Goals:
- Work hard and get a promotion/ better position
Reduce monetary debt by 50%Increase credit core by 100+ points- Get new car
- Work out and eat healthier
Travel moreGet back into dance and aerial training
Okay, so half my goals have been achieved... not bad. These goals will obviously roll over for 2020, along with some new ones. I focused my energy on too many other things, rather than focusing on myself. I think this caused my setback and deterred me from moving forward. This year, I decided to cut out all of the negativity surrounding me - which included certain toxic people within different "communities" and friend circles. I've purged my social media by removing most of these people because their nonsense really isn't worth my time. I needed to delete the negative people in my life that have been trying to bring me down because they're actually irrelevant. I believe that friends come and go... and most people I see or associate with in social settings are just acquaintances. I personally do not have many friends and I just enjoy the ones I already have. The select few that reach out to me to grab dinner or hang out are the ones I cherish because I see them as people who give me their time.
I've officially worked in New York City for one full year. I think I have a love/hate relationship with it. I hate the commute - it takes over 1.5 hours to get to work each day, and my commute is heavily dependent on the MTA. The winters get really cold and I always have to check the weather to dress accordingly when walking outside. I also have realized how easily germs and things spread on the train, so my OCD for cleanliness has kicked in with hand sanitizing wipes and avoidance of touching anything on the train with my hands. NYC hustle and bustle is so fast paced. I'm not sure how I've managed to keep up with things (in and out of my company). You begin to notice dramatic changes overnight... from opening/closing of new restaurants, pop up shops, changes in art and scenery, etc. I absolutely love it, but if I cannot make the time frame of when museums pop up, I end up missing these small events. I'm sure I'll become more accustomed to this lifestyle, but I miss driving.
Speaking of driving... my car finally died so I've been heavily relying on public transportation. I was planning to buy a car at the end of last year, but it has been postponed because my boyfriend and I went on a trip to Hong Kong (I'll blog about this at a later time). I need to make this my main priority this year because this goal has been on hold for three years now. I would rather take some time to myself and figure out what I need to do over the next few months so I can finally cross this off my list. I miss having a car and I understand the financial cost of my ideal dream car, but it's something that needs to be done.
One of the highlights of last year was that I was able to travel to Asia last year and we got a chance to go to Hong Kong and Macau. It was a lot of fun, considering I have never been to China and the last time I've been to Asia was 1999. I ate so much food while I was there and probably gained 10 lbs. in the process. There was so much to see and buy as well. I was able to meet Kenny's family and it was nice to see him interact with his relatives. He hasn't seen them in a long time, so I understand the need to spend time with them. I mostly enjoyed the shopping and the tourist sight-seeing aspect... and we came at a time where there wasn't too much turmoil from the unrest and protests from the people of Hong Kong. I feel for the people of that country... they're fighting for freedom that is slowly being taken away from them. I do hope this turmoil gets resolved soon.
I need to take some time to focus on myself for 2020. I've started doing that in 2019, but I need to figure out what I want. The question that was presented to me yesterday was, "Where do you want to be in the next three years?" Honestly, I have no idea. I'm at a standstill of what I want to do. I'm comfortable at my job and I am okay with my life, but at the same time, something is lacking and missing. As crazy as 2018 was, I was happy with myself. I think that same mindset needs to come back for 2020. I need to stop thinking about all my insecurities and realize I'm still the same bad ass woman I was before... with more fashionable clothing and bigger dreams. Okay 2020, bring it.
I've officially worked in New York City for one full year. I think I have a love/hate relationship with it. I hate the commute - it takes over 1.5 hours to get to work each day, and my commute is heavily dependent on the MTA. The winters get really cold and I always have to check the weather to dress accordingly when walking outside. I also have realized how easily germs and things spread on the train, so my OCD for cleanliness has kicked in with hand sanitizing wipes and avoidance of touching anything on the train with my hands. NYC hustle and bustle is so fast paced. I'm not sure how I've managed to keep up with things (in and out of my company). You begin to notice dramatic changes overnight... from opening/closing of new restaurants, pop up shops, changes in art and scenery, etc. I absolutely love it, but if I cannot make the time frame of when museums pop up, I end up missing these small events. I'm sure I'll become more accustomed to this lifestyle, but I miss driving.
Speaking of driving... my car finally died so I've been heavily relying on public transportation. I was planning to buy a car at the end of last year, but it has been postponed because my boyfriend and I went on a trip to Hong Kong (I'll blog about this at a later time). I need to make this my main priority this year because this goal has been on hold for three years now. I would rather take some time to myself and figure out what I need to do over the next few months so I can finally cross this off my list. I miss having a car and I understand the financial cost of my ideal dream car, but it's something that needs to be done.
One of the highlights of last year was that I was able to travel to Asia last year and we got a chance to go to Hong Kong and Macau. It was a lot of fun, considering I have never been to China and the last time I've been to Asia was 1999. I ate so much food while I was there and probably gained 10 lbs. in the process. There was so much to see and buy as well. I was able to meet Kenny's family and it was nice to see him interact with his relatives. He hasn't seen them in a long time, so I understand the need to spend time with them. I mostly enjoyed the shopping and the tourist sight-seeing aspect... and we came at a time where there wasn't too much turmoil from the unrest and protests from the people of Hong Kong. I feel for the people of that country... they're fighting for freedom that is slowly being taken away from them. I do hope this turmoil gets resolved soon.
I need to take some time to focus on myself for 2020. I've started doing that in 2019, but I need to figure out what I want. The question that was presented to me yesterday was, "Where do you want to be in the next three years?" Honestly, I have no idea. I'm at a standstill of what I want to do. I'm comfortable at my job and I am okay with my life, but at the same time, something is lacking and missing. As crazy as 2018 was, I was happy with myself. I think that same mindset needs to come back for 2020. I need to stop thinking about all my insecurities and realize I'm still the same bad ass woman I was before... with more fashionable clothing and bigger dreams. Okay 2020, bring it.
